Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Things {Tiger Lilies} Have Taught Me


{tiger lilies growing in a ditch along CR 313 between Bluffton and Findlay}

:: It's perfectly alright to be the tallest girl in the room. There's no shame in that.

:: Although people might try to transplant you around their mailboxes, confine you to pretty little plots or incarcerate you in perfect rows you look best in your own personal wild.

:: When the storms are coming, it's best to close up, batten down the hatches and hunker down. You can always reopen for business later.

:: Deep roots are just as important as good hair.

:: If you like bright orange and red – wear them! Together! After all, beauty is more about attitude than anything else.

:: When the intense winds start to blow, bend. You won't break. And it will all be fine tomorrow.

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

The Crazy House

Straight out of the camera of my new friend, these are two gorgeous shots of the place I will always call home. Although I lived there only seven years, they were my most formative and impressionable. I was born when my parents lived in Lexington, but just before I started first grade we moved into this house in Georgetown.

It wasn't always this stately and beautiful. In fact, I remember that when we first moved in I secretly thought of it as the Crazy House. It was like nothing I had ever seen before.

The previous owner was what my parents politely referred to as "interesting" or "inventive" when my sister and I were around. I suspect they used more colorful language when we weren't. He had been a deaf man and something of an inventor perhaps. A few of his creations were even practical. The rest? Not so much. Every bathroom in the house was rigged with a small window panel built into the wall. Beneath the colored glass there was a small lightbulb. If the light bulb was on it meant that the bathroom was occupied since knocking and waiting for a reply would have been useless for someone who couldn't hear.

Some of his innovations were seriously strange. Running through the middle of the first floor was a hallway full of doors – ten to be exact. Some led to closets or the basement. But one door opened into a bathtub. There was not a single inch of space with the exception of a closet full of tub! In order to actually use it for its intended purpose of bathing you would have to completely disrobe in the middle of the hallway. . . not very practical or relaxing. Eventually my sister and I claimed it as a play area and spent hours with our dolls and stuffed animals, playing in a cramped, yellow bathtub in a closet. And to my knowledge, in the seven years we lived there not a single cleansing soak happened in that closet. {I wonder if it's still there??}

The front yard in these pictures looks beautiful now but when we first moved in it was also seriously odd. There was a formal, circular garden framed in boxwoods grown out of control and large, overgrown, unkempt flower beds. In the center of the garden was a fountain that had certainly seen better days. Perhaps even days when it might have actually worked. But the craziest thing I had ever seen in my life was between the garden and the house – a cemetery monument about four feet high marking the grave of the previous owner's dog. It had a bronze plaque and the whole nine yards memorializing his faithful companion. (For the life of me I can't remember the dog's name now!) Like everything else that was so unconventional in this house, my sister and I converted it for our own purposes. It made a perfect pitcher's mound for our whiffle ball games! {And if you got the whiffle ball onto the roof, it was an automatic home run!}

My room growing up was the one right off the carport in the first photo. I loved the huge windows looking out over the roof. The mourning doves congregated there and awoke me on summer mornings with their cries. I always wanted to climb out my windows and sit out there with the doves but I was too shy a kid to even try.

My sister's room was on the opposite side of the house. Her windows overlooked the swimming pool. {The one where she almost drowned, but that's another story.} We used to imagine having a slide that went from her windows directly into the water. It sounded like so much fun at the time but I doubt we'd would have had the courage to try! I remember looking longingly out those windows when my parents had an adult party and we were threatened with promises of pain not to leave that room until the party was over. My mom brought us fancy food and we entertained ourselves by watching some adults do things that children probably shouldn't witness from upstairs windows. {I also remember that we completely trashed the room – took the mattresses and box springs off the frames, threw our toys all over the place – knowing we wouldn't get in trouble since my mother felt bad that we were locked away for so many hours.}

The happiest memories of my life are in this house. Memories that were formed well before religion, dogma and inflexibility became the standards. Times that were fun, relaxed and unclenched.

:: my dad teaching me to play basketball in the driveway

:: my mother doing cartwheels in the front yard

:: keeping chickens in a coop off the garage (that looks like it's gone now)

:: planting our live Christmas tree at the front of the lot near the road one year

:: playing in the huge sycamore tree and pretending it was a spaceship

:: my dad taking the extra time to mow a path through the tall grass surrounding the huge backyard for our very own bike path

:: my dad, while clearing the overgrown side yard with a chain saw, cut down a tree that fell on my sister while she was riding her bike

:: my sister and I pushing the riding lawn mower up the hill in the driveway and rolling it back down into the garage, over and over again. until one particular day, when we missed and hit the garage door. we bent the frame of the mower. the parents were not impressed.

:: learning to cook in the huge kitchen with the fieldstone fireplace and the rocking chair with the wide, black bottom

:: our 15' Christmas trees, always in the formal entry way at the front door. this photo is from about 1975 and it's all the cousins on my dad's side of the family in descending order. that's me at the top with my sister Cindy next, then Sally, Tracy, Kim, Tricia, Carrie and Melissa. (Jamie wasn't here yet!)


:: being taught to sew in the tiny room with the miniature door where my mother's sewing machine was kept

:: standing at the end of the long driveway, trying not to cry, waiting for the school bus on my first day of first grade at Great Crossing Elementary School

I loved the Crazy House. I still do. When anyone asks, "Where are you from?" this is the place that frames and anchors my childhood. And it will always be my home.

*thank you to Aunt Sharon for sending me the pic from Christmas! I don't have any pictures from my childhood.

Monday, June 28, 2010

Inspired

Last Wednesday, as we were waiting patiently for the Special Olympics torch run to begin I met another photographer. He asked me a few questions about my camera and I was immediately nervous. I simply don't know that much about photography and I always feel like a "poser" who will be revealed as such if you scratch at all below the surface. I rarely, if ever, take my camera off the automatic settings, only occasionally do I manually focus the lens and I wouldn't know an ISO setting if I stepped on it in the parking lot.

It's not that I don't want to know. . .it's that I'm not good at learning those kinds of things by reading. I need an actual human being to show me why something works or why it doesn't. Theory is useless in the way my brain processes information. I'm all about practicality.

But, I digress. Back to the real photographer.

He was so kind. And unassuming. And non-threatening. We laughed and talked and he gave me his card and encouraged me to look at his portfolio online. The more we talked – the torch run was about 35 minutes behind schedule – the more we had in common. He's from Kentucky originally and told me that he and his wife were about to leave for Georgetown (my hometown!) for a week to housesit for their daughter! He posts one picture online every day (and has for the last three years straight!) and he told me to watch because there would soon be shots from the small town close to my heart.

The more we talked the more at ease I felt and the more questions about photography I began to ask. He was gracious and generous with his wisdom. And he didn't make me feel like an idiot for asking, always a plus!

The upside of all this is that he has really inspired me to try to learn more about photography. Because of our chance encounter last week I made a trek to the park at dawn yesterday. I think I have an "eye" for composition and color. Now I just need to learn about the vast "science" behind the art.

Perhaps it should all begin by making friends with that ISO setting??


{Frank Wilson, photographer (and exceptionally nice human being!) • view his portfolio here}

stay tuned tomorrow. i asked if he would mind photographing something in Georgetown for me and he found it. . . in spite of my lack of actual address and crummy descriptions!

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Morning Silence

Mornings are my bliss. I can't remember how many years ago it was that I stopped waking to the sound of an alarm clock. I'm usually up between 4:30 and 5:00 and I dearly love the quiet of daybreak. I enjoy coffee on the porch in the summer and watching the world slowly waken.

This morning, for the first time ever, I decided to venture out to Van Buren State Park with my camera just as the sun was coming up. I was the only one wandering around the lake and it was such a peaceful hour alone. After walking for about a half hour and snapping things that seemed interesting to me, I parked myself on a picnic table at the edge of the lake and decided to just be still and watch. I saw a huge carp come to the edge of the lake and feed on something living on a rotting, submerged log. A bullfrog started his moaning, melancholy call and it made me jump with surprise. I saw dragonflies dancing on the water.

And, eventually in the silence, I was rewarded with this.


For sure, I'm a morning kind of girl.

Saturday, June 26, 2010

Summer Morning

{along the coast of Rhode Island, from our summer vacation}

To live in this world
you must be able
to do three things:

to love what is mortal;

to hold it
against your bones knowing
your own life depends on it;

and, when the time comes to let it go,
to let it go.

Mary Oliver
New and Selected Poems

Friday, June 25, 2010

Joy

joy |joi|
noun
a feeling of great pleasure and happiness : tears of joy | the joy of being alive.
.........................................................................................................................................

It's the only word that adequately expresses my experience of volunteering for Special Olympics.




Are you smiling just looking? I am.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Get Out of the Way

Last week I was volunteered to take pictures at the Special Olympics torch lighting ceremony and fund-raising carnival at Blanchard Valley Center. I'm very unsure of my photography skills and was nervous about disappointing people who wanted the event they had worked so hard to organize to be recorded.

That's always the human temptation isn't it? To make it "all about me?" Oh that human ego and all it's little tricks.

As we stood there waiting for the little pack of runners to turn the corner towards us I remembered that the essence of Special Olympics is simply to do your best. That's all any of us can do. I took a deep breath and got out of my own way.

I've just barely begun to look through the more than 200 images I shot last night. I wanted to quickly put up a few because, as I stood on Sandusky Street watching the athletes, coaches and Ohio State Troopers running towards me I got cold chills and the echo of Rabbi Abraham Heschel's words rang in my ears. . .

"When I marched with Martin Luther King in Selma, I felt my legs were praying."


Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Things {Izzy} Has Taught Me

:: a bathroom sink is perfectly shaped for an afternoon nap in the sun.

:: curiosity won't necessarily kill you. but it might hurt. a lot.

:: being self-centered comes naturally. and it isn't all that flattering.

:: it's better to eat small meals. all day. every day.

:: being top dog isn't really all that and a bag of chips.

:: a little catnip now and then won't hurt you.

:: tell everybody how you really feel. often. loudly.

:: when you are scared, give yourself really big hair. and spit. it makes you look tough.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Happy First Day of Summer!

{from my garden to you!}

Monday, June 21, 2010

A Study of Sedum

We went on the garden tour this weekend. Several of the stops on the tour were almost magical. The final one we went to was a tour of lots and lots of hostas and daylilies. In addition, it was also a working greenhouse.

Ali got inspired by the sedum. And they had a lot of it. They also had their own homemade hypertufa pots. She couldn't resist.

{she found six sedum of various colors, shapes and textures and a
hypertufa pot to hold them all}

{the knowledgeable folks at the greenhouse told her that if you partition the different varieties off with small stones they will stay segregated better. she chose small pieces of brick for a nice contrasting color.}

{don't they look like adorable little pieces of seaweed?}

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Saturday, June 19, 2010

A Reflection of Me



My hair is a mess.

I see myself in the bathroom mirror as I hurry past, just catching a glimpse at the edge of awareness. For a split second I am startled. And then I laugh. I laugh out loud because I am forever forgetting what I look like. Somehow I expect to see the 20-year-old me. But that girl is long gone. She is out, remembering what it was like before time, gravity and shifting worlds elbowed their way in and settled down to stay.

It's not that I don't remember. It's just a matter of reflections. The ones in my mind don't match the ones in my mirror.

I know that I am still there. The 22 year old who thought she could change the world. The 32 year old who was finally beginning to feel alive in her own skin. The 42 year old who found herself beginning again. We all live in this covering of skin and bone, but occasionally we surprise each other.

Every day brings changes, good and bad. Erosions. Attritions. Sharpenings. Fine tunings. Explosions of perfection.

Time keeps moving and I recognize myself only in the blur.

Friday, June 18, 2010

Aren't I Clever?

I love wearing skirts in the summer. And I don't mean fussy, girly skirts although I have some of those too. I also like grungy, comfortable skirts that I don't worry how dirty they get and the more wrinkled they get, the better. When I cleaned out my closet a few weeks ago I looked at a pair of stained, torn jeans that had seriously seen their better days and decided to recycle. I had no pattern, no experience and no plan.

Beat up jeans went from this::



to this::



– using only a seam ripper, a pair of scissors, an old pair of shorts, my sewing machine and a little bit of imagination!

I cut off the legs around knee length and carefully picked out the seams up the inside of the legs. On the front, I ripped the seam up to the bottom of the zipper and on the back I went all the way up to the yoke. Smoothing out the pieces that were left, it easily went into an A-line "skirt shape" with lots of overlapping material. I then carefully re-sewed using the old, clearly visible seam lines.

In trying it on, I realized that there were some serious coverage issues in the front that needed to be addressed if I didn't want to be arrested. Thinking it over I first thought I would use the leftover legs to fill the gap. But I wanted more color. So I cut up an old pair of madras, patchwork shorts that had seen better days and used that instead!

A quick zip with the machine around the bottom of the skirt lets it fray just a little without raveling out of control and it was done. Less than an hour and I had myself a new skirt!

And yeah. . .I think I'm pretty clever!

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Another Letter From Sammy

Hi to all you peeple in this komputer boxx thing.

This iz ur freend Samson (the dogg) riting too u. I am riting from a plase my mom is kalling "time out" where she sayz I will bee for maybe the rest of my liffe. I got in truble. agin.

See, here's wat happenned. My bruvver, Oly and me had been upstaars playing in the room with the xtra bed. the one that noonne ever sleepz in. somehow, and i dont no how, a pilow got a hole in it. i thot it was funy and then somehow that hole got way biger. and biger. and biger. then all these fethers started comming out and it was way fun. (i know what fethers iz becuse one time Oly, he kiled a burd!) for a few minutes i was feelling like Oly. U know. all tuff and strong. not really like me at all, but it was funn to preetend.

then Oly went down the starez where our momz was and the fun camme to the end. The tall mom said "Y do you have a fether on ur noze Oly?" The short mom laffed. i like it when they laff so i went down there too. The short mom looked at me and she said, "Y do you have fethers in ur moath sam?" they stoped laffing.

They sayed "do u think they keeled a burd in the house somehaw?" and they went too look.

wen they gott upstarz this is wat they saw.


they waz madd. madd. madd. they keeped asking me that same stuupid questun. "what did u do?" over. and over. and over. this was all i kuld do.


they waznt asking Oly at all "wat did u do?" onlyz mee. it maade me sad. i thot it waz preety. and fun. and at first it maade them laff. but then not so much.


and now i'm in prizon called time out.

pleeze send bonez. . .

Big Butter Jesus

I always mentally called it "Big Butter Jesus" because it looked like one of those butter sculptures you see in the milk producers tent at the state fair every year. The most common reaction when encountering this thing it for the first time was a slack jaw, followed immediately by the word, "Why??" Others referred to it as "Touchdown Jesus" or just "that huge, ugly statue on the way to Cincinnati." No matter what you called it, everyone who has ever traveled I-75 in southern Ohio knows it.


Or, should I say knew it?

"Big Butter Jesus" got struck by lightening last night and burned to the ground.


I simply cannot help taking delight in the exquisite irony.

We now pause for a slight commercial interruption. . .

{Let me give you a moment to revel as well. A few prompts - Pat Robertson explaining that the Haiti earthquake was a result of a pact with the devil.

Or this gem from Jerry Falwell on the September 11 tragedy, "The abortionists have got to bear some burden for this because God will not be mocked. And when we destroy 40 million little innocent babies, we make God mad. I really believe that the pagans, and the abortionists, and the feminists, and the gays and the lesbians who are actively trying to make that an alternative lifestyle, the ACLU, People for the American Way -- all of them who have tried to secularize America -- I point the finger in their face and say 'you helped this happen.'"

One last prize - don't forget Pat Robertson promising that God would send a hurricane to punish Disney World for their support of gay and lesbian days the park. . .}

Back to our regularly scheduled program. . .

Big Butter Jesus got fried by an act of God. . .

We always knew that Jesus was a lightening rod. . .

I can't help it. It's just too easy.

Perhaps I can best sum it up in the words of my friend Wendy, "The whole thing is so terrible and wonderful and incredibly ironic. It makes me love humans. And God."

She's a bit kinder than I am.

Monday, June 14, 2010

The Incarnations of Basil

:: from here. . .
{a pot of cinnamon basil in our garden}

:: to here. . .
{my cutting board; with some grape tomatoes, halved}

:: and finally, to here. . .
{an insanely good salad!}

1 pound orzo
1/4 cup fresh lemon juice
6 teaspoons finely chopped fresh basil
4 teaspoons Dijon mustard
1 teaspoon grated lemon zest
1/2 cup olive oil
1 1/2 cups crumbled feta cheese
3 green onions, thinly sliced
1 cup pitted Kalamata olives, quartered
24 ounces cherry tomatoes, stemmed, halved

Cook orzo according to package directions. Drain and cool under cold water. Combine lemon juice, mustard and lemon zest in small bowl. Slowly drizzle in olive oil, whisking to make a vinaigrette.

Place cooled orzo in large bowl. Toss in the basil, feta, olives and tomatoes. Pour vinaigrette over all and toss to coat. Let stand at least two hours to allow flavors to combine before serving.

(I added a single serving pouch of tuna for my lunch leftovers!)

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Silly Little Dog

{this post has nothing to do with anything.
just a silly little picture of an amusing best buddy – oliver.}

{both it, and he, make me smile.}

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Friday Transformation

What started as just a title for a blog post (A Weekend Transformation) got me thinking about how many things change – every day. I want to spend little time thinking about, and photographing, little transformations.

Friday, June 11, 2010 Transformation

:: from this. . .
(a leak in the roof forced me up the ladder to attempt to patch. a direct result is that i was forced to deal with my fear of heights and ladders.)

:: to this. . .

(a fearless woman with a caulk gun* who scrambled
down the ladder like it was no. big. deal.)

*no, we don't know whether it still leaks or not. . . it's supposed to rain today though!

Friday, June 11, 2010

Thursday Transformation

What started as just a title for a blog post (A Weekend Transformation) got me thinking about how many things change – every day. I want to spend little time thinking about, and photographing, little transformations.

Thursday, June 10, 2010 Transformation

:: from this. . .

:: to this. . .

(it's been a little rainy here lately. can you tell? this is a lily that ali gave me last year at easter. we didn't really know if it would survive the winter. by the looks of things, it thrived!)

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Wednesday Transformation

What started as just a title for a blog post (A Weekend Transformation) got me thinking about how many things change – every day. I want to spend little time thinking about, and photographing, little transformations.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010 Transformation

:: from this. . .


:: to this. . .

(tea. my favorite summer drink. unsweetened, of course. click on the photo to enlarge – the bottom of the tea bag is pretty cool.)

Wednesday, June 09, 2010

Tuesday Transformation

What started as just a title for a blog post (A Weekend Transformation) got me thinking about how many things change – every day. I want to spend little time thinking about, and photographing, little transformations.

Tuesday, June 8, 2010 Transformation

:: from this. . .

(a shady spot under the tree, where grass struggled to grow)

:: to this. . .


(hostas, that love the shade, and vinca, that flowers light blue in the spring)

Tuesday, June 08, 2010

Monday Transformation

What started as just a title for a blog post yesterday (A Weekend Transformation) got me thinking about how many things change – every day. I want to spend little time thinking about, and photographing, little transformations.

Monday, June 7, 2010 Transformation

:: from this. . .



:: to this. . .

:: and, eventually to this!

Monday, June 07, 2010

A Weekend Transformation

On Saturday, I took lots and lots and lots of these –


and turned them in to 24 pints of this!


Twelve pints are freezer jam and twelve pints are cooked and canned jam. The latter will be shared with people we love!

Sunday, June 06, 2010

Early Summer Breakfast

An leisurely Sunday morning breakfast, enjoyed while listening to the birds through the open kitchen windows. . .

:: sliced tomatoes, with plenty of salt and pepper


:: fresh, sweet cherries – as many as you please


:: buttermilk biscuits, made into warm little sandwiches with a slice of cheddar cheese

And of course, coffee. Two pots, with plenty left over for iced, with mint plucked from our garden, for later in the day.

Thursday, June 03, 2010

Grieving


"When all the waters are polluted...only then will you discover that you cannot eat money."

~ Native American prophecy


"it is not hard to understand
where God's body is, it is
everywhere and everything; shore and the vast
fields of water, the accidental and the intended
over here, over there. And I bow down
participate and attentive."

from Mary Oliver's poem "On Thy Wondrous Works Will I Meditate"